We made it!!!

It's Christmas Eve and we made it to Colorado!!!

It was a long day of travel, but it was totally worth it.

I can't even tell you how excited I am. We were the last of my family to arrive. (Greg is still en route.)

It is total chaos here and it's awesome!

When we landed it was 20 degrees and snow is everywhere.

It snowed 10 inches here on Thursday! It's going to be a White Christmas for us!! 

(can you tell I'm excited?)

I am so grateful for this opportunity to spend Christmas with my family. It's the first time in 5 years that we have been able to be with family for Christmas.

It's been wonderful as it's been to be our own little family, and start our own traditions, but it's even more fun to be home and revel in all the memories of Christmases past.

I want to wish everyone a very Merry Christmas!

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Raw...

I'm sad.

I've been sad for a while now...

I don't know why.

There is no reason for it.

We have been so blessed this year.

Both Greg and I have received promotions in a time where so many are losing their jobs or not making enough money.

We have been able to move to North Carolina and I have absolutely fallen in love with this area!

It's beautiful and I can imagine spending the rest of my life here.

We get to go back to Colorado for Christmas!

For the first time in I don't know how long all of my siblings PLUS their spouses and kids (the only one missing will be Porter) will all be in the same house at the same time!

 All four of us were together last August for Cassie's college graduation, but the kids/spouses were mostly absent.

 

 

The thing I'm most excited about is I get to talk to my son for the first time since Mother's Day.

I've really been missing him recently and I can't wait to just talk to him.

I know he's where he needs to be, but I miss him like crazy!



I know how blessed I am. I know how much worse it could be for my family. I've lived the worse that it could be! And still... I'm sad.

I keep reminding myself of what Jenny (aka The Bloggess) says: "...depression is a lying bastard..."

Between commitments I had this summer before we moved and the move, I haven't slowed down since early May.

There has been no recharging of my batteries. No time taken to sit in the quiet and just be.

I have also managed to gain 15-20 pounds this year. I know most of it is because of stress. I gain weight when I'm stressed.

(Fun Fact: I can eat right and workout everyday and still gain weight if there is enough stress in my life.)

I know that part of what I'm feeling is dread at going home and having to face my family after having gained all this weight. I don't want anyone to see me like this, especially them...

I'm posting this because I need to remind myself that depression is a lying bastard!

My life is great right now.

I will pull through this. I'm stronger than the lies depression is telling me right now.

I will feel happy again. 

The Reason....

I haven't posted in a while....

I haven't had much to say. But today I watched this video and it made me pause and think about this time of year.

And why we celebrate Christmas.


We are celebrating the gift of our Savior to the world! By emulating Him and doing as He did we can give back just a little of what he gave us.

I love this time of year! It's a time of giving and celebration,
of family and loved ones.

But there are so many who don't know the truth, who haven't heard the good news, or felt the hope that the light of our Savior can bring.

My Christmas wish this year is that I will be able to give back just a little of what MY Savior has given me.

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